Musings on 'The List'.

I've been idle far too long.

In more ways than one too. I've become too self-serving for my own good in many ways. Due to a lot of stuff going on with work and school organizations this school year, I've felt majorly stressed out at times. Not to the point of exhaustion, but the point where I feel as if I need a lot of personal time. But it's time to put on my big boy pants and stop lying to myself. If I want to be successful and have a clean conscience, I've got to push that aside and continue on being successful without being a wuss and saying I need my own time to do my own stuff.

A few things I need to do..

Stop playing so many video games. I don't feel guilty doing it, nor should I feel that I should. I don't see it as a waste of time, I see it as an appreciation for art. However, I don't think that I should feel as if its a responsibility to play them. I often do. I should just play them when there's nothing better to do and I've accomplished a good set of goals for the day.

Which is another thing I need to do, I need to have a set list every day. I've done this before, but I've fallen away from that recently. It gives me something to shoot for and something to feel darn good about myself for after the fact.

I also want to devote more time to my own projects. I want these things to diversify myself, even if they involve something totally silly and stupid. For instance, last weekend a goal of mine was to put Mentos and Diet Coke together and see for myself the resulting reaction. It was funny as all get out. I'm not going to fully enjoy life if I just read about it and think about what it would be like. I need to actually 'friggin do it. And these things might not be totally pointless either. I think a further devotion to Dirrty Apple would do me a lot of good. I'd love to get into that sort of stuff professionally, and a deep devotion to it could open doors for me.

I should also stop being so self-serving. I need to think about the good of others around me more. So many resulting things come of this that I don't need to explain, especially to myself.

I'd also like to become more faithful. I have been in the past, but don't feel as if I've grown much since then. I am also usually personal about it and don't flaunt it as many in the Bible Belt often do. However, there can't be any harm, and only good in sharing it with those who are closest to me.

That's about it for now. One last thing I'd like to do is to have a definative list of things both constructive and stupid that I'd like to accomplish. Perhaps I can do that in a future post.